finally got the balls to watch the finale because i wanted something gay and remembered i had download this. it wasn't that great. i mean, the movie was very heartstopper, but it sort of felt more like an extended epilogue after the first three seasons. i think the pivot to a film format didn't allow the story to simmer and close out all the characters' chapters properly, except maybe nick and charlie, but even then it wasn't as good as it could've been. i loved seeing a different side of nick and how his codependency on charlie affects him on an individual level. we got a sure glimpse of that in season three as well and this movie's first half does a good job of showing us his anxiety surrounding his perception of himself. but due to the super short runtime, we aren't allowed to stay in that personal conflict before we have to shift to the problem it makes between him and charlie. i enjoyed watched this movie, it was a nice goodbye to my beloveds, but i wish we got a whole season instead. tao and elle's story was so completely sidelined here, like dude they had sm potential to be explored but they got horribly vagued in this movie. their dynamic interests me sm coz as a person with two functioning eyes and a brain i can tell they're soulmates frfr coz they just GET each other but also because they're both such strong personalities it also puts them at odds with each other. they'll always love each other, no matter the state of their relationship, AND THAT IS SOSOSOSOSO FASCINATING TO SEE BUT NETFLIX HATES THEM. and we also vagued tara and darcy. what is happening w them? why r they just randomly going interrailing? huh? tori's the only one, and maybe isaac, who felt like they had a nicely tied ending with a cute now. wish we explored more of isaac's experience w asexuality tho? UGH THERE'S SM THAT COULD'VE BEEN DONEEEEE. THEY SHOULD PUT ISAAC IN AN ADAPTATION OF LOVELESS.
in other thoughts, i love mr. ajayi and mr. farouk. charlie as head boy is peak. nick nelson switch!bottom healed something in me. i am heavily attracted to kit connor in all ways. i want to kiss charlie spring as a boy (as in me. i am a boy). that baby queer at truham named ALFIE is ME BRO. for a second there when charlie says "hi alfie i'm charlie" I COULD'VE SWORN IT SOUNDED LIKE ALFIA I WAS TWEAKING YALL. anyways goodbye to my goat comfort story of all time. i love you forever.
